Me and Alex stopped chatting on IM about a month ago. He took me off his IM list. Then he added me back after a few days. I start chatting with him again.

I was cool about everthing, and i thought he was, but deep down inside he was mad at me for rejecting him, but at the same time he was still loving me. I didn't avoid chatting with him, i'm not that type of person. But now i think i change my mind. He says hurtful stuff to me. I didn't bother at first, but i cannot stand it anymore. He says the nicest thing sometimes but his shitz really kill the soul. I got into an argument with him. He told me to forget him even as a friend. And he said to give him time to forget me. I said fine. I mean after all i know its got damn hard to stop loving somebody if you see her everyday. I even told him to take me off his IM list. And he did.

I was god damn happy after that. Why? Because i've been trying my best to make him understand that me and him will never work out. Plus he's not my type. Yeah, you guys might think that ...wtf, u bloody cold hearted bitch...but the truth is the truth. I didn't play with his heart. I directly told him from day one that i wasn't interested. It's his problem if he still like the cold hearted bitch me.

Anyways i was relieved that he is finally giving up, it's got damn hard to make him give up. But...he added me to his IM list again. But this time i totally ignore him. I think i did the right thing to ignore him this time cos i don't want to give him the idea that i was playing hard to get.

...ok that was the history...now to the present.

When i was exiting the labs today, i saw Mike and Kelvin outside and i'm sure that Alex is somewhere with them. I kind of freaked cos if i see Alex, i would have no idea how to react. Anyway i have to exit the labs anyway and it would be too odd if i was avoid them at that moment. I said hie to them, casual chat with Mike and Kelvin. I looked at Alex, he definitly look kind of pissed seeing me but who cares. I wanted to say something, anything, to him,...but i guess he doesn't . He made no eye contact with me, looked at the floor the whole time i was there. I got my bag and left. I couldn't stand the aura i'm getting from him.

It's sad to lose a friend, a close cyber friend because of rejection. Is that life? Is that the consiquence of love? Or is it just immaturity?