My grandma twised her backbone last month and still recovering. She've been staying at my uncle's since then. My family have been going over to my uncles to visit her and sometimes bring her over to our place for a change of environment.

What really pissed me off is that now, when the school holidays starts, both my uncle and aunty decided to go to Thailand for the weekends for a holiday. Ok, i know that's nothing wrong with that but they just dump their 10 year old son and my grandma at home with the maid. My uncle didn't inform my dad until the day before they were to leave! And you know what is worst, this afternoon, my aunty's sis came over and took my 10 year old cousin over to ther place for the weekend. My aunty planned this for her son but didn't even bother to tell my grandma and our family. So it's like my grandma and the maid only. Somemore my grandma is afraid of being alone.

Ok, i don't know if i have the right to be mad, but i am. I mean how can my uncle be so irresponsible! She your mom for god sake! Going off for a holiday when my grandma is sick, without informming my dad (his brother) earlier and leaving my grandma alone with the maid. What a JERK ...his wife too! I told my dad how i felt, he just kept quite. I think he is ashamed of his brother too.

You know what, i remembered that my uncle once said "Kids these have low moral values". Well guess what, at least we kids have some, he has none.

I feel hella good today. Nice email. Nice time at class. Nice time at my project progress report meeting. Woohoo!

Quote of the day “Life is like a box melted chocolate”

#1 because the weather is so hot these days. The slight drizzle in the late afternoon and evenings makes it even more humid! (You know, its like the hot sauna system, the more water (rain) you pour on the hot charcoal (earth), the warmer it gets) The hot weather melts all the chocolate down.

#2 Chocolate taste good, but its kind of hard to enjoy it if it’s all melted. Everything gets so messy, the chocolate sticks on your fingers, and sometimes it gets stuck in front of your teeth. But the feeling of the melted chocolate on the fingers is just *slurp slurp. Plus when you lick/suck (don’t mean to sound obscene ;P) it off your fingers, tasting the melted coco on your tongue…feels like heaven.

#3 …forget what I said in #2. Don’t make any sense to what I wanted to say. Back to the quote, life is like chocolates, bitter and sweet. And when it melts, it gets a little stressful, depressing even annoying. But don’t get pissed over melted chocolate and kill yourself. Life still goes on no matter what. So lick the chocolate off your fingers and enjoy the taste in your mouth.

Me and Alex stopped chatting on IM about a month ago. He took me off his IM list. Then he added me back after a few days. I start chatting with him again.

I was cool about everthing, and i thought he was, but deep down inside he was mad at me for rejecting him, but at the same time he was still loving me. I didn't avoid chatting with him, i'm not that type of person. But now i think i change my mind. He says hurtful stuff to me. I didn't bother at first, but i cannot stand it anymore. He says the nicest thing sometimes but his shitz really kill the soul. I got into an argument with him. He told me to forget him even as a friend. And he said to give him time to forget me. I said fine. I mean after all i know its got damn hard to stop loving somebody if you see her everyday. I even told him to take me off his IM list. And he did.

I was god damn happy after that. Why? Because i've been trying my best to make him understand that me and him will never work out. Plus he's not my type. Yeah, you guys might think that ...wtf, u bloody cold hearted bitch...but the truth is the truth. I didn't play with his heart. I directly told him from day one that i wasn't interested. It's his problem if he still like the cold hearted bitch me.

Anyways i was relieved that he is finally giving up, it's got damn hard to make him give up. But...he added me to his IM list again. But this time i totally ignore him. I think i did the right thing to ignore him this time cos i don't want to give him the idea that i was playing hard to get.

...ok that was the history...now to the present.

When i was exiting the labs today, i saw Mike and Kelvin outside and i'm sure that Alex is somewhere with them. I kind of freaked cos if i see Alex, i would have no idea how to react. Anyway i have to exit the labs anyway and it would be too odd if i was avoid them at that moment. I said hie to them, casual chat with Mike and Kelvin. I looked at Alex, he definitly look kind of pissed seeing me but who cares. I wanted to say something, anything, to him,...but i guess he doesn't . He made no eye contact with me, looked at the floor the whole time i was there. I got my bag and left. I couldn't stand the aura i'm getting from him.

It's sad to lose a friend, a close cyber friend because of rejection. Is that life? Is that the consiquence of love? Or is it just immaturity?

I can't stand them anymore.

I'm not invisible you know, plus they are people around you know. Can't they just not make any body contact even for a minute? Just thinking of it gross me out.

I watched X2 just now with Jane. Bloody hell she talks too much. There i am trying to pay attention to the movie but she keeps on yacking away about everything she sees on screen. Can't she just shut the fuck up and bloody watch the movie and only talk about it when its all over! She went out in the middle of the show to the ladies, thats the only time i got some peace and quiet. Too QUIET tho! The stupid cinema sound system turned off for a whole 5 to 10 minutes! Everyone was so pissed including me. I want a refund!!!!!

Today really suck and its not the end of the day yet. ARGH!

My intuition was right. My parents are having a war behind my (and my sis's) back. I could feel it, i knew there was something wrong with them. Now i know for sure.

I heard them fighting yesterday night.

I really hate this.

ah screw it!
i still can figure out the darn codes. dont know how come that speak up link wont go to that same line argh!!!!
looks fine on my HTML editor but sucks up here. try again later....

tasdaf

testing one two three....there seem to be something really wrong....hmmm

trying to fit enetation properly...arghhh

So many reason to maintain another blog... my main blog is read everyday by my friends around me, my good buddies, my study buddies, people whom i don't know and god knows who else. I have so many restrictions in that blog. I can't really cuss at people cos they will surely get mad. I can't fully express myself there because of so many many reasons.

Here i am, free. Noone knows me. (But i think at this stage noone even reads this)

WEEEEEEE!!!

Noone is going to read this....at least for now...so it dont really matter what i out in here.