It's been a busy week. Mini assigments all done. Still slacking on projects. Work is finally almost done.

Two really important meeting are scheduled for Tuesday. One was the followup meeting for the one i skiped on Monday. And after that i have a meet with the management that is involved with my work. The funny part, I won't be going for both! WEEEEEEEE! Okay, you might think that's i'm a real irresponsible person, but i'm seriously not. I didn't plan to skip it. It's just that i've already made plans on that day(i'm going on a mini holiday up to Genting), plus i'm not willing to cancel that plan just for work. I've done my part, submitted my work to my leader, and even told him that i wasn't free on that day, it's not my fault if the scheduled the meeting on that day rite? Ok, i know i'm right, but why do i feel so guilty?

I don't know how this came to my mind but i'm going share with you this really 'char tho' retort i thought of.
If someone insults your bf/gf, for example like "you have a real bitchy/jerky girlfriend/boyfriend". Here's what you can say to stand up for your gf/bf and yourself.

echo
"Hm, are you complementing me or insulting me? I love my bitchy/jerky gf/bf, thanks for complement. I'll make sure she/he knows of it. But why insult me? You mean I’m not bitchier/jerkier? and i always thought that i was better of a bitch/jerk"

Don't ask me how it came to mind. Cos seriously i don't know either.

I'm going to me MIAing for a while again. I'm going back to Pangkor (my Kampung) tomorrow and for the weekend! WEEEE! Then i'll be up in Genting on Monday and Tuesday! Double WEEEEE! Won't be logging in for a long long 5 days. Don't miss me! Licksss~~

I told a big fat lie today.

You see, i have 2 important meetings to attend tomorrow, both held at the same time (but the venue is like one east and one west). I've already confirmed my attendance for one of the meeting, but i kind of changed my mind. So i lied. Handed in my documents and stuff and told them I can’t go ‘due to personal reasons’. Heh..i'm escaping the meeting! ;)

But I’m not all that lazy. I’ll be going for the other less formal meeting.

The tv in the hall is being watched by my sister. So i continued watching my taiwan series on my pc. I put the cd in the cd tray. Closed it. Watched the last episode. The story touched my heart. I felt like crying.

My tear rolled down my cheek. My eye hurts. More tears rolled down.

.....

The medicated oil my grandma was using was killing my eyes! You see, i felt like crying, but my tear was not caused by my feelings, but the smell and the sting of the 'oil of winter green' my grandma was using. My grandma have been staying with my family for almost 2 weeks now. She's sleeping in my pc room now, and my pc room smells not like hardware anymore =(

Sobb sobb...my eye hurts...the smell of the oil really stings my eyes

Funny stuff i found while cleaning out my hdd. Enjoy ;)

echo
"

At a recent computer expo (COMDEX), Bill Gates reportedly compared the computer industry with the auto industry and stated "If GM had kept up with technology like the computer industry has, we would all be driving $25 cars that got 1000 mi/gal." Recently General Motors addressed this comment by releasing the statement "Yes, but would you want your car to crash twice a day?" and also noted the following consequences of GM imitating Microsoft:

1. Every time they repainted the lines on the road you would have to buy a new car.

2. Occasionally your car would die on the freeway for no reason, and you would just accept this, restart and drive on.

3. Occasionally, executing a maneuver would cause your car to stop and fail and you would have to re-install the engine. For some strange reason, you would accept this too.

4. You could only have one person in the car at a time, unless you bought "Car95" or "CarNT". But, then you would have to buy more seats.

5. Macintosh would make a car that was powered by the sun, was reliable, five times as fast, twice as easy to drive, but would only run on five percent of the roads.

6. The Macintosh car owners would get expensive Microsoft upgrades to their cars, which would make their cars run much slower.

7. The oil, gas and alternator warning lights would be replaced by a single "general car fault" warning light.

8. New seats would force everyone to have the same size butt.

9. The airbag system would say "are you sure?" before going off.

10. If you were involved in a crash, you would have no idea what happened.

"

I can't freaking stand it anymore. Why can't she just be more responsible!!! A deadline is given to her. Without thinking she just said "oh yeah, i'll send you my work by Friday". I waited and waited but nothing. I called her again, she said she was away. Ok, nvm. I said Sunday afternoon. I didn't recieve it until like 5pm! I was still fine then, at least i got her work and can resume mine with hers. But then when i open her files, there's no other expression to describe how i felt except WTF. She gave me a draft of the draft...and i was like expecting the finished work.

I called her, she told me one whole bunch of crap. Then she told me she can send me a low quality of her files just for my viewing sake, so i can at least get on with my work. I said fine. Again i waited, the file was supose to reach me by 1pm, I waited till 1.30 then got a SMS from her. She said she can't send it to me cos she was having class. In my heart i'm like "WTH, if you're having class then why in the first place you tell me that you can send to file to me by 1?!?!!" GODDDDDDD she really got on my nerves. I'm suppose to go over to another friends place to finish my work (cos sw went bongkers) at 2, and she tells me this. How on earth am i going to finish the work in time? And if i don't, i'm the one that will be screwed.

I made a deal with her, and forced myself to chill. I went over to my friends place then.
....guess what, my friends pc lags like hell!!! Just imagine doing video editing on a 500mhz processor. *faint faint.

I'll be dead meat if i don't get the whole video up and running by Wednesday.

Only one good thing happen today. Me and Alex are IMing each other again.

The rest are all bad, sad, stressful and frustrating. I don't feel like blogging about it cos it will just make me feel $%@$@^%$&*%#(*&. But i do want to say something. So i'm just going to say it.

FARKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

i think there was in international link down. the line was very bad.

i lost my post...so screw it. i dont have the energy to retype it... argh...im going to bed.

You know what....i'm not egoistical...i'm just a bitch.

echo "

Bitchology

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,
they call me a bitch.

When I stand up for those I love,
they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do
things my own way, they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in
my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It
means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and
speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid.

It means I have the courage and strength to
allow myself to be who I truly am and won't
become anyone else's idea of what
they think I "should" be.

I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.
I want what I want and there is
nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame,
try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold
within me. You won't succeed. And if
that makes me a bitch, so be it.

I embrace the title and am proud to bear it. I'm a total bitch.

Babe In Total Control of Herself
"

i'm so duh.
i'm so stupid.
ish...how can i make a dumn arse mistake like that?
....*sign

defaultbrain.blogspot.com...not blogspot.com/defaultbrain
...stupid stupid stupid...baka baka baka

I'm beginning to like jazz. I always found it too calm. But now, my perspective towards this genre of music is changing.

I came across Hellsing (jap anime) and fell in love with the soundtrack. They have this really nice modern jazzy song in it. The soundtrack reminded me of this Diana Krall song i have (cry me a river). Then in CowboyBebop (another jap anime), there's this few jazz songs that i fell in love with.

And now i'm like a "jazzy" person. hehehe.

Jazz is not all calm after all. Just have to let the jazz sink to your mind!

I look like this skinny under weight mal nutritious kitty kat. Well actually not really, i just look like a normal 'ooi leng' chick as my mom calls it. Anyways i told myself that i'm gonna force myself to eat more and put on weight. And guess what...i'm actually about 6kgs heavier now.

But the thing is that i have to attend a relative's birthday dinner (in like an hours time) and i can't find anything to wear. I got fed up trying my whole wardrobe, so i'm here blogging.

Maybe i should just wear jeans.
....i have to go shopping soon...real soon.

I'm so god damn tired, but i don't know why i just can fall asleep on the bed at night. I think it's the stress, but then again, i don't feel any.

You know, its like your body fails to function properly, your eyes begins to hurt a lot, the legs feels heavy and the muscles begins to hurt a lot....but then you lay yourself on your solf comfy bed, the body start to ache all over, rolling from side to side don't work either. The worst is when the brain fails to shutdown. Images, memories, fantasies, problems, solutions and predictions flows in one by one in to the mind, then as the mind starts to fall asleep and as the brain starts to rest, your body suddenly jerks.

Then you are left wide awake again. Your brain is left crying to be shutdowned....again.

...really in deep shit. Fark..