I feel hurt. So very hurt.

I know that she's like that. She's always the 'i'm all for my bf' type. She's always been like that. I've been thru those phases with her but why do i still feel so hurt? I feel that i'm no longer needed.

Am i just a part time buddy to you now?

I'm 19. But from 8.30pm to 12am i was a 15 year old stuck in a 19 year old body. I had a BLAST! It was fun.

I was suppose to be the most mature among them but no, i just couldnt hold back on FUN! I was a sakai, a 'ah moi' from some kampung that just came from some small kampung, i was a pure 19 year old jakun.

When the bands were playing, i went up to the stage and danced. Gave the lead guitarist, who was also doing the vocals, my VIP orkid. Since he's hands were not free to take the orkid, i help him pin it on his shirt. This girl came on stage later to sing a song by Jewel...she was fantastic...and there i was, being the jakun, i stood on my chair and start waving my hands.

It was fun. Didnt had this much fun since...since...i cant even remember. ...and its great to have friends who are willing to be jakuns with me. =) =) =)
weeeeee!

Ehhh hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not superwoman la okkkkkkkkkkayyyyyyy. You shut your mouth during meetings and dont give out ideas. I ask for comments on my work and you said its up to me. Bloody hell, then why are u the one complaining about the colour, the design and shits?!? Heckkkk i did three bloody designs for you in 5 hours!, and what do i get? Thank you? Noooooo i get, eh why this one like that one, why cannot do like the one we saw on google, why the colour so bright one. There's really something wrong with your eyes cos dark green is so not BRIGHT. My godddd you really can get real bitchy. Give me a colour and i'll work with it you idiot. Dont make me waste time designing and then get piss when you bitch about everything.

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Dont you just hate when a not so new hardware wont work on XP? I borrowed my friends scanner, that that new but not that old either. Installed the driver and shits but the damn sw can seem to detect the scanner. %$#@

Tried reinstalling, rebooting my pc and what ever i can think of. No avail. So....i'm here...terpaksa to wait approx 20 mins to dl the 41mb XP driver from the scanner's company. I'm just glad that im on broadband. Would be hell if i dled from a 56k.

Oh yeah i'm alive. Very alive indeed.

Yesterday was real scary. I know its just me but its still freaky. I was carrying out a task as a PR person. I got to chat with this guy on ICQ. When i said my thank yous and good byes, he said "We are friends now, but i hope we can be the best of friends". I know he was just trying to be friendly but...yorrr freaky.

Anyways, found this out from another blogger's site. Follow these steps and read the error message properly.
#1 Goto google.com
#2 Type in "weapons of mass destruction"
#3 Click on "I am feeling lucky" button.
#4 Enjoy

I've tried learning 3DStudioMax once from their in built tutorials. I tired to draw a nice red 3d apple on it. Yeah, i totally sucked at it. Anyways the point is, if you need to so some cg stuff and have shity skill (like me), check this out for the 3d rotating effect. And for those who are not even a little bit interested in the 3d topic, well, go check it out too, will really change your perspective on cg on videos/movies.

Have fun =)

I still feel like shit. Maybe it's PMS. Or maybe not.

Echo "

Have life or have no life, that's not the question. Seriously, i think have life. No matter what life we live in we still have life. So Have Life people. No matter how bad, how sad, how boring, we all still have life.
It doesn't matter what people think of you. It doesn't matter if your life is happenning or not. It doesn't matter if you can't meet to other people's requirement. Just live your life the way you are happy with. Noone have the right to judge/rate life. Noone. Life is ambiguous. What maybe seem 'Have Life' to others maybe seem 'Have No Life' to you and vice versa. So why even bother to even listen to the 'Have Life or Have No Life' debate?

"

Have you ever felt that you are tired of life, felt that you just want to RIP cos you are just so sick of it? But no, you don't want to kill yourself cos you just love yourself too much to kill yourself.

Just thinking of those who will come to your funeral and grave after you've passed away. Think of those who will miss you dearly after you've gone. Think of those who you didn't know loved you so much. Think of those who will cry you a river not because you left, but because you've shown them what happiness is.

I wish i could attend my own funeral. Dont you?

Alex came over. I helped him with his work. He just left.

Nothing happened. Phew.

My bro just messed with my desktop. A few of my shortcuts are missing. My files and a few folders are placed all over the place. Its annoying to have people mess with my stuff, esp without my knowledge. He has his own account on my pc, why cant he just use his.

ICQ is so bloody fucked up! Bloody hell i've been getting hell a lot of messages from a whole bunch of people i don't know. God damn it, NO I DON"T WANT TO KNOW YOU PEOPLE! F OFF! STOP FLOODING MY LIST! GO AWAY YOU ANNOYING PEOPLE!
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I'm gonna find out what is happening. I'm not listed on any public ICQ list or what ever. There must be something else. Something really annoying.

I'm back from my holidays (from Pangkor and Genting).

I got stung by a jellyfish.

Got sick drinking seawater.

Didn't get drunk in Genting.

Did everything we can do back in KL in Genting.

Just went up there to get the air...that wasn't that cool until late nite.

Got a call from my team mate when i was up there, the management loved our work. WE KICK ASS!

Have class at 8.30am tomorrow. Sucks.